Natasha's been having bad days too, I can see it on her Twitter feed. I don't know what's going on - her snaps to me have also decreased. I understand I'm not a very big part of her life anymore, but I still keep up with her occasionally and it's sad for me to see her... being sad. It's just not her, you know? She's usually the sass queen and nothing gets to her. I guess the only thing that gets to her is us, 'cause she misses the IJ crew.
I guess they're right when they say IJ friends are friends for life - what we take for granted back then is what we want the most now. 4E was rather bonded, if you ask me. We took everything in stride together and we accepted each other without any qualms - because we all knew we had a lot in common. We were like mirrors that reflected each other, just that the frames were different, you know? We were the same, yet different.
We understood each other, no matter if we liked or disliked the person. I'd give anything to be in the same class as them again. I try to fit them into my life, and they do too. The effort is there, but sometimes it's just our messed up schedules. I miss the way Natasha always laughs at my antics (whether on purpose or accidental) and how she always complains about things. Her complaints are never whiny, but actually deals with very realistic things. Like how boys are such dickbrains and they need to go suck a dick or something. It's hilarious, really.
I spend more time with Prescillia because she's in the same school as me, y'know. We set aside time for each other to have lunch in school, we go to school together in the mornings, and try to go home together. My parents say that we're close to being glued to the hip already. I love teasing her and all, but I just want to be that shoulder for her when she cries. There's nothing that pains me more than seeing her hurt. That applies to all of my friends, actually.
I feel like there's a weight on my back when I see my friends unhappy. I want them to be happy - to enjoy their lives. And if there's any way I can help, I'd love to. I just hope they don't wallow in their sadness/ problems because it really doesn't help much. I see Jiayi occasionally too, when she pops by Starbucks to say hello to me and Pres. It's nice.
Bonny always says hi to me in Jiayi's snaps. She's so pretty (she has always been but wow) now, Jesus. Where's my puberty change again? And my hair's like fried grass.
Ah, but this post isn't about me anyways. It's about my friends.
Natasha recently gave me a present - and she wrote one thing that left a very deep imprint on my heart.
"I love you like a back alley whore loves her next fix." - Natasha
And I love you the exact same way, girl. Simply hanging out with you brings me to an all-time high, because I sincerely enjoy your presence. You always enlighten me with your knowledge, and how in tune you are with the secrets of the universe. You never ever fail to wow me with your words, and I don't think you'll ever stop. Don't ever change.
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Dear Prescillia,
Please take care of your heart. I'll try to keep it as safe as possible too, but everyone tells me that I have to let you take your own steps. I have to let everyone around me learn to move forward in their lives, and I have to let go of some things, so I won't get left behind either. Protect yourself, protect your heart and most of all, protect your innocence. You see the world in a view that I don't. I see the world in it's harshest light, where people manipulate each other for their own gain.
You still see the world in a pure state - where your friendships are simple. You don't need much but simple love and acceptance by the ones you surround yourself with. And that is a very beautiful thing. Please don't change too.
I love you both.
