Fresh to Death

Frankly I'm quite physically exhausted from today, but I'm staying up to relax by watching some League videos and writing this. It was a great Saturday, actually. I woke up to a nice rainstorm, which made me so warm and comfortable in bed?? #blessed

Then I woke up to go have Macs breakfast with Natasha, because y'know, it's Macs breakfast. We were supposed to swim at 1PM, but the rain was kind of wrecking havoc with our plans. :( So we decided to go to Jurong East as Natasha wanted her brows done... so we went to Browhaus and she got them threaded LOL fuck threading hurts like hell. Waxing is so much less painful, but too bad Benefit was fully booked already.

Luckily Browhaus had a slot lol (which surprised us bc Browhaus is almost always fully booked and they hardly allow walk-ins, much less on the weekends) and then we got that settled, returned to Clementi and camped at the Starbucks for 15 minutes or so... THEN THE RAIN STOPPED.

God bless lol. Then we went to swim for about 1 hr 15 mins at Clem pool... it was deserted when we arrived lol there was literally no one?? We left around 3:20pm, and the pool was fucking crowded lol full of kids and weird people. We then crossed the road to 123 and we went to try Beesket!! There's a branch at Changi City Point for them eastsiders lolz it's basically a juice store that has no additives, no powder or sugar. They just blend the fruits you choose and they have like a little factsheet for you, telling you how much calories your drink is, and the nutritious value.

So though mine has like lesser calories it is also much less nutritious than tasha's LOL. You can see our fruit choices. I thought hers would taste like crap (it looks like green goop) but seriously it is SO GOOD though. The factsheet is so kawaii seriously.

Then I bought some sushi and went home, showered and then did my makeup and left to meet James. I cut bangs recently so my current makeup regime makes me look like Cleopatra for some reason. :\
Ah well. Either way we went to Bugis and had Thai Express. I busted $35 on dinner wtf... I didn't even realize I ordered that much like smlj la Val what are you doing.

Went to walk around, then had Llao Llao for dessert cos the bf was having cravings. Sick to death of Llao lol don't know what spurred me to actually buy a fucking cup. Guess I figured that since I queued so long then might as well just buy.

It was a nice saturday night date, reached home around 10+ and removed my makeup + washed my face. Not sure why but my skin feels so tight all of a sudden???? Is that a good thing or??? Idk LOL but yeah played some League and here I am.

Just wanted to share a piece of my life here. I haven't felt THIS refreshed in so long. A good swim and dinner makes me feel so much better, and I think I've managed to purge some of the stress plaguing me due to school and assignments. I've probably ranted too much recently and there are too many angsty posts on this blog, hence this random, happy post. Hope you all are enjoying your lives too, cheers!

Superiority Complex

I do think that I have a superiority complex for the people I hate. And I think it's how I function. 10 years of all girls... it really does warp your mind. Maybe without IJ, I might have developed this complex anyway... though I think it wouldn't even be THIS severe.

I know it's one of the worst things to do. To think that you're superior to someone else, to think that you're better because you hate them. But what if it was to survive without mentally collapsing? I think that if I had stayed truly kind and all like Cinderella, I might be in a psychiatric facility right now.

Because even if you are kind, the world is not. And it works in strange and mysterious ways - ways that we all cannot fathom. Most of the time, it is unfair. And as humans we have learnt to deal with things, but everyone does so differently. This superiority complex is a survival skill, not just something to soothe your broken ego.

If I hate you, then just know that I think I am superior to you. But it takes a lot for me to truly hate someone. I am the kind of person to give chances again, and again, though it's unhealthy. I've decided that from now on, I'll be more careful about the friends that I make, and the people I'm currently acquaintances with.

The things that hurt the most are the people that you truly cared about. And knowing that your sincerity was unappreciated is probably one of the most painful things ever. I will always have my hang ups about friends/friendships now, and I think that will be one of the hardest parts to overcome.

But of course, I'm grateful that I no longer have parasites in my life, and having learnt my lesson, I'll be able to weed out more in the future. Here's to growing up, responsibilities, turning 18 and being wiser. Cheers.